The boys, their birth mother, and me!

Good afternoon world!  God is so wonderful!  The last writing I did before we left for the funeral, I was determined to not let the boys and their birth mother talk.  We walked into the funeral home, late of course.  I saw Nana and the rest of the family.  After the service, I felt a strong, strong urging that I was okay for the boys to talk to Becky, birth mother, and for Becky to talk to them.  Hugs were even okay.

I thought telling the boys about their Poppa passing away was hard.  I knew it would hurt the boys and I would have done anything for them to not get hurt.  This was different.  I was in tears as I told my boys, the ones I loved from the time I set eyes on them, took care of them when they were sick, held them when they were afraid, laughed with them when they played, it was okay for them to not only say hi, talk to Becky, but also give her a hug.

Chuck Jr. walked over to the funeral director who was standing by our seats.  I got up.  Went up to him.  Had to remind him who I was (it had been 14 years since he has seen me).  And ask him to tell Becky that it was okay.  He looked confused.  I repeated myself and said, "She will understand."

When it was our turn to go up front to view Poppa, Becky and I hugged and cried.  She kept saying thank you for everything.  I just kept crying.  She went over to talk to the boys and Nana sort of freaked out.  I hugged her and told her it was fine.

The only thing I wish could have gone different was pictures were taken of the boys before asking me.  I was asked about the pictures going on facebook.  But not about the pictures in the first place.  Other than that, it was good.  Becky and I talked by ourselves for a while.  I had some sad feelings come over me at times for Nana and Poppa.

It was overwhelming for the boys at times.  But all in all I think it was good for them.  Following the leading of the Holy Spirit is what I believe I did.  The strong urging I felt, was His leading to make the situation right for the boys.  And I was comforted by Him when ugly fears would rear their heads.
The Holy Spirit is here not only to lead us, but also to comfort us.

"26 But the Comforter (Counselor, Helper, Intercessor, Advocate, Strengthener, Standby), the Holy Spirit, Whom the Father will send in My name [in My place, to represent Me and act on My behalf], He will teach you all things. And He will cause you to recall (will remind you of, bring to your remembrance) everything I have told you."  John 14:26  AMP (Amplified Version)

This is not going to be a daily, weekly, or monthly event them seeing their birth mother.  However, for the boys she is not such a mystery to them.  We have told them everything about their situation as far as why they were taken and the parental rights terminated.  But because of not seeing her for all these years she was that mystery.  No more.

Be blessed and be a blessing,

Just some of my thoughts and actions,

Elizabeth