Who I AM, not the roles I play in life!

Good morning world.  Yesterday I wrote about not knowing who I was.  And wrote a list of who I am after thinking about it some.

I was contacted by a very dear friend about yesterday's writing.  She said I had written a list about the roles I walk in.  She challenged me to take away those roles and make a list of who I am, me, Elizabeth.

I accepted the challenge and told her I would have to seriously think about this.  She told me to ask the Holy Spirit to help show me.  I am going to start with a couple of things I was told the other day, so I feel like it is almost cheating.

1.  I have a big heart.  Almost to a fault at times.  I have opened up my home for years now and it has not always worked out for the best in the end.  Yet, I continue doing this.
2.  Hospitality is one of my gifts.  I love to have people over for any occasion.
3.  I love, even the unlovable at times.

(This is harder than it looks)

4.  I am kind.
5.  I am honest.
6.  I have work ethics.
7.  I am respectful.
8.  I am fun.
9.  I am funny, at times.
10.

The flip side of this list, and there is a flip side, is:

1.  I can build a wall around my heart quicker than it takes for a drop of rain to fall from the clouds to the ground.
2.  At times, not only do I not want anyone over, but I do not want to see anyone either.
3.  When the wall is up around my heart, I do not love anyone, even myself.
4.  Mess with my kids and find out how unkind I can become.
5.  I have lied in the past.  I am not proud of this.  The Lord hates a liar.
6.  I get lazy some times too.  Do not look at my floor right now.
7.  I believe I am respectful in most bad situations.  However, when any of the bad list is in play, my respect for whomever is gone too.
8.  The past few days I have not been fun at all.  Just ask my boys.
9.  Ditto from line 8.

I am not sure if this is what my dear friend meant.  But here it is.  This is who I AM.  I think.

Be blessed and be a blessing,

Just some of my thoughts and action,

Elizabeth

P.S.  I did not stick to the eating plan much yesterday as my stomach was very upset.  I had crackers to try to calm it down.  And chicken and rice, rice is definitely not on the eating plan.  However, it settled my stomach.  It is not upset today.  So back on it!  Sunday is a good day to start again!