I'm fine

Good morning world.  How are you?  Me, I'm fine.

How often do we say "fine" when we really are not fine?  I do it often, more often than I really like to admit.  I am not fine.

Let's turn the tables a little.  When you ask "How are you?"  Do you really want to know how I am doing or anyone else?  Or is this just a polite saying we have gotten use to using?

My boys know if I say "I'm peachy." that means definitely I'm not peachy or fine.  In fact, when I say that to them, I usually will be telling them what is wrong.

So why do we, or I do this?  Most of my friends know when I am upset.  I wear my feelings on my face.  I don't know.

I started this post yesterday morning when I was still upset over the weekend.  We had gone camping.  Usually I calm down and relax when we camp.  This time I did not.

However, yesterday, I ended up a lot more calm and not so angry.  I was even able to seperate my feelings and realize  where the anger is coming from.  I will deal with that today.

Today, after school, it's a massive home blessing (cleaning).  Stuff is still around from camping, mostly dirty clothes.  A caseworker is coming today for one of the kids.  Most of the time I do not worry about this, but today I do.

So next time I am tempted to say "fine", I am going to stop and think a bit before I answer.

Be blessed and be a blessing,

Some of my thoughts and actions,

Elizabeth