Saturday, May 2, 2015

Grumpy in my ministry? And Day 2

Good morning world.  I had a lesson on Thursday in submission to Patrick, my DH, and in living the old fashioned lifestyle I so desire.  I had a sleepless night Wednesday night, maybe 3 to 4 hours of sleep.  I need at the least 6 hours of sleep if not more or I get grumpy.  Without going into details, I kept getting my feelings hurt over things that had nothing to do with me.  Then went to the world of "he knows when I get like this, all I need is a hug and for him to ask, "What's wrong?".  He really does not care."  Do you know that world?  Well, he did the opposite, he left me alone.  I went to bed upset, almost had another night of no sleep.  HOWEVER, I had an AHA moment.

I realized, as I was laying there praying, I had done nothing to take care of him and my family when they got home from where they had been for the day.  I had baked for the day, but most of it was a flop, bread did not rise, etc.  I felt like a failure (that with no sleep, UGH).  My goal in this ministry of mine is to make a safe home, take care of my family and have a biblical home. Instead I was being poor me, no one takes care of me.  The reality is God takes care of me, I take care of me, and Patrick takes care of me too.  Almost immediately as the realization hit me, I felt a peace wash over me.  I kissed Patrick, and fell asleep.  The next morning, I asked for forgiveness for my attitude. 

"with all humility and gentleness, with patience, showing forbearance to one another in love,"  Ephesians 4:2  NIV

This spoke to me this morning about the other day.  As my home and family is my first ministry, is it where I should show God's love first with everything spoken in the scripture above. 

Here is the report of day 2 and 3 of my hair using homemade shampoo.  Day 2, I am definitely in the transition period.  I was so hoping I would not go through it, but I am.  I wore it up and out of the way.  It did not look bad, but I knew how it really was. 

Day 3, today.  Have not taken a shower yet this morning.  I was up late waiting for Patrick and the boys.  So I got up a little late.  I will post today's report tomorrow. 


Be blessed and be a blessing,

Just some of my thoughts and actions,

Elizabeth

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