Good morning world. After re-reading this I will edit and add my apologies for being a tad long today. For a few days I have not been able to do much of anything. There has been a lot going on here and with extended family. I found myself in a state of depression. This does not happen very often. My house shows it. My relationships show it to an extent. I tried to cover up the fact that I was in a shut down mode. I think my 3 boys knew. Possibly my dear husband. My extra other kids, not so much.
So what did I do about it? I have 2 friends that I can usually talk to about most everything, 3 if you include my husband. My best friend, Susie, is one and one of our cousins, Kelly, is the other. Susie is in Dallas surprising her husband with a much needed and deserved visit as he is working away from home for a couple of months. And Kelly had gone out of town for a day to visit some of her family. Along with general family stuff for both of them.
Yesterday morning comes along, Sunday. I had pretty much decided that I was not going to church. That Patrick could go with the kids and I would stay home and "rest" on the couch. Which is where I had been for days.
However, I did go to church. Just happened. Not out of habit. I had not been to church on a Sunday in a few weeks as I had been sick. I got to church a little late. Put the little ones in their class. Put the baby in the nursery. Then sat down to a praise and worship service. I did not go up for prayer during the service as I have done in the past. I did pray. I did praise Jesus. I did honor Him.
That little time I spent with Him brought out of my hole of depression. He loves me! Even when I do not think I am lovable! He cares about all of me! Even when I do not think anyone cares about all my little stuff. He wonderfully made me!
I had forgotten about the daily renewing of the mind by reading of His word. This is what keeps me sane in an insane world. Life itself gets busy. I had purposed several years ago to not get too busy for my Lord and Savior. If that means I wake up earlier, then so be it. If that means I stay up later, then so be it.
The simple act of going to church has helped me to find God's joy, peace, and love when I needed it most.
Be blessed and be a blessing,
Just some of my thoughts and actions,
Elizabeth
